Long day

Sometimes you really wonder if you are doing the right thing or if you are making a mistake. Wondering about these things eats you up all the time. This brings me back to the point about needed to rely on God. I have this feeling that if I actually depended on Him than on myself and my own thoughts, then things would be a lot easier for me.

I haven't been able to work out since the last time because a lot of other things have been going on. I have so much homework to do this weekend that I haven't done. Way too much has been on my mind to even think about being responsible about things. I'm not proud of that.

I watched the show with the family who has 17 children. You wonder why these people keep having all of these kids. It sort of seems like some sort of cult they are in or something. I also don't think they get to do everything they want to do. There was this one scene after they moved into their new HUGE house that they built themselves (as a learning experience) that one girl was playing the piano while the other ones were playing the violin. I wonder which of those kids actually want to play the violin. I think it would be a fun experience maybe for a day, but I would never have that many kids. It's just a little bit ridiculous. I think by that point the babies just slide right out, who knows. Props to them though for raising their kids. Amazingly they are all very well behaved. I guess you have to be when there are that many kids around. Woa. I couldn't do it.