About that time...

It seems that around this time of the year my mood typically decreases. My energy is at its bare minimum and I feel that I just can't go on. This time two years ago I was feeling very similar to the way I am feeling right now. Times are a little different, but I am still going through similar things. Once again I enter into the stage of my life that I dread the most....change.

My plans for the fall may have possibly changed. I had my mind so set on moving out to Denton to go to school. Because I have always been tight on money I have been second guessing myself whether or not I should move out there. I am still going to attend UNT, but my living situation might change. The rising gas prices makes me not want to commute, but the fact that I will have to pay for an apartment rent makes me not want to move. This stresses me out beyond all measure...as if I needed any more added stress. All I'm trying to do is get through the rest of the semester...I don't want to think about the future.

The future scares me. I said this a few years ago and I made it through, but this is even bigger change. I know once I get in the groove of things I will be okay but I am constantly worrying about other things.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -- Matthew 6:34

This verse came to mind because as I am sitting here procrastinating studying for my test, I am worrying about other things. This is where I get myself into a pickle. I worry about the future rather than taking care of things I need to do right now. I just feel that I need a lot of guidance. My relationship with God is not what it used to be and I need to get myself back in gear.

I really don't know what else to say. Please just pray for wisdom and guidance so I can make the best decision for next semester.